It's been quite awhile since I have blogged. Don't know why, exactly. It's not that I am at a loss of things to say (as my inner circle would attest to). I think it's more that the thoughts that I do have lately seem twisty, like a snake curled up in an unexplainable way, where you can't determine the beginning or end of it. A month away from everything can scramble you up a bit. But I think that is the whole point, isn't it?
After my month long journey, I've seen things differently, or have been reminded of things I once knew, but got lost in times of busyness, and boredom. Here are some things that I know for sure from my experience:
1. I can do nothing, and it still takes an entire day to do it.
2. It is possible to not think about work.
3. Getting things done has historically been confused with worthiness.
4. Sometimes you must change your course, and frighten others, to be true to yourself (a reminder).
5. There's always a next big thing, and that next big thing can be tiny.
6. They can take everything I have ever done and created, but they cannot take the things I haven't thought of yet (a reminder).
7. Moving forward, detached from details, timing and deadlines.... Liberation exists somewhere within here.
8. Focusing on producing and not on happiness is all kinds of wrong.
9. All the same emotions one can feel while working (anticipation, excitement, producing, accomplishing), can all be felt on a random beach on any day without an agenda or a goal (ask me how one day).
and finally,
10. Not working for one month has been one of the single, most hardest things I have ever accomplished. And I consider it one of my best accomplishments to date.
And a bonus one:
You can fall in love with a fish named Herman.
It was a good trip. I'm not a new person or anything radical like that. I'm still Ms. Workaholic. But the difference is that I now know for certain I don't have to be Ms. Workaholic to still feel worthy and proud of who I am. And THAT, my friends, has made all the difference.
By the way, headed to Bora Bora next.... to work on the next 10.
Make it a great day!
My Love,
Michelle
